This year has been filled with memorable dates; some good, some painful. Today is one of them.
A Facebook memory popped up from this day last year when I started my #DeckDevotionals. While it was the first day of a very fruitful time with God, there was a lot more to it than that.
This was the day after the annual church bbq, which meant it was the day after my ex-fiancé had sent me a text about wanting me to keep fighting for “us.” My mind was spiraling for a moment and I was emotionally exhausted.
I was in the middle of beginning to make decisions regarding most important aspects of my life - relationships, ministry, career. And I knew that if I did not bring it all before God, it was going to get ugly very fast.
So the next morning, I sat myself on the deck and told God I wasn’t moving until I heard from Him. This continued all week long. I needed Him to tell me what to do with ministry - stay or move on. I needed Him to tell me what to do with this man - stay or move on. I needed Him to tell me what to do with my career (long story) - stay or move on. If there was one thing I’d learned at this point, it’s that I did not want to be where God didn’t want me.
He gave me every answer I needed, but it goes FAR beyond that.
On August 21st, one week after I started this deck devotional time, my family’s world turned upside down, and we’ve spent the last year handling it, together.
So today, as I look back, I see that God used that week to speak to my heart in a big way, at a critical time. But beyond that, He used that week to clear my heart of the clutter so it would be ready for what came the following week.
I was in a place where I wasn’t drowning in my own questions; my mind wasn’t spiraling, and focused on myself. I was ready. God made my heart clear and ready.
And I didn’t even realize how it all lined up until today. How good is God?
“He is before all things, and in Him all things hold together.”
This day is another stone in the river bed.